MILESTONE!! No. 2

I drove...a little. It was snail like and it was so sad but I did it!

Despite Jodi telling Jonathan that it was too dark outside for me to drive, he insisted on me driving out to the end of the drive way. And it was dark, it was around 10:30 or so....and I was stalking their house again....

Anyway! Jonathan was telling me about how to hold down the brakes and only to use one foot and how to put it in gear and how to turn the wheel with both hands and such.. Then he got out the car and I thought it was kidding but I actually drove! I was so scared and so happy! yay! I was so scared that he was gonna make me drive onto the road but he didn't.

I know its small and not a big deal but Its the first time that I actually drove...at 5 miles per hour...down a road and had to turn a little! ^_^ yay for moving forward!

Song: Into the Rush by Aly & AJ

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EW2rJore_Ew

Operation Life Change GO!!!

Okay so, I have been going through this journy to prayer thing and trying to figure myself out so I can get closer to God and be ready for when Jesus comes. I've tried to take some steps on my own to alter little bits of the person I am so I can still be me and be with God but I keep contradicting myself and the old me keeps getting in the way. To get the big picture, the person I am right now is not a person that is ready to accept God and that is not who I want to be.

SO! I have been going through the stages of making some MAJOR ULTRA UBER EPIC changes in my life and its no off and on thing this time! Now I'm not saying that me as a person is going to be gone, I'm just saying that this attitude I have about everything in life needs to go, cause it isn't helping the big picture to be visible for me.
I have made a small list of things I need to go about changing in my life. And here it is! ^_^

• I need to pray more. Not just before bed, during the day and when I wake up.
• No more lying to myself and making excuses to justify my actions, either its wrong or its not.
• Must stop eating meat so much. I know its bad and I can't keep doing it just because it taste good.
• No more of those mangas. (I know what I'm talking about)
• Care more about your neighbors. Its okay to care about your fellow man if one dies or has something bad happen to them. Just don't go debbie downer over board with it.
• Read your bible more! (>w<) just do it!
• Start moving forward. Exercise, get that drivers license, and get ready for college. No more excuses.
• And stop over thinking everything. Just do it.

These are done in no particular order mind you. I'm going to do this. I'm tired of saying that I'm going to change and then I just give up in a week. Not this time. I am going to do this, come what may.

Song : Innocent Green by Yoko Kanno

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q41gPYrK_3k

Cabin Fever

def : a claustrophobic reaction that takes place when a person or group is isolated and/or shut in, for an extended period. Symptoms include restlessness, irritability, forgetfulness, laughter, and excessive sleeping.

I has that.

On days when I am not working, I never leave the house. I just don't find reasons to, nor do I want to. Recently my neighbor left for vacation from Thursday till today when they returned. The whole time they were gone I was watching their pets. Letting them out to pee and feeding them. But their dog was very needy and she howled whenever I wasn't over there for a long period of time. It got to the point where I had to sleep on their couch and basically live in their house for the last couple of days. I was lucky to break away yesterday and go to work, which was really what I needed for a long time.

I always thought that there was nothing out in the world that I needed or that I couldn't get while staying at home. I can't live like that anymore! I have got to get out of this house! I love my mom and I love spending time with her but I feel like I can't breath in this house! Thank God for knitting Mondays and random calls to sub at the daycare!

I think the best cure for all this is some quality time with nature. Just random walks or just sitting on the porch. I need to be outside though. I'm never gonna move forward if I don't leave this house! Curse you computer! I blame you!!!

Song: Can't keep it in : Cat Stevens
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F1BDcGkZj-E

Random Anger!! WHOO!

Okay so I was watching tv with my mom and we saw the coco puffs commercial and, like always, we said that the bird was addicted to the coco puffs cause there is crack in them! But then my mom said "At least he gets to eat his cereal.". And that is so true! Unlike some unlucky mascots! Yeah thats right, I'm talking about the trix rabbit! Now, I hate bunnies as much as the next crazy person but that trix rabbit is just about the unluckiest cereal mascot in the world!

Every time he wants something to eat those kids steal it from him and then he has to sit there and watch them eat his food! HIS FACE IS ON THE BOX!! You would think that would allow him to have a little of what is IN the box! >_< It just pisses me off! And then there is the lucky charms guy!! All he wants is to be left alone so he can actually sit for once at a normal table and have a normal breakfast but no, he is always on the run and he is always trying to find new ways to get away from those blasted kids!

Has anyone else noticed that the kids chasing the lucky charms guy are breaking about three diff rent laws! They are disturbing the peace, breaking and entering various places that the leprechaun lives in, and they are stealing without any intentions of giving any of it back! Yet, they are left to roam the streets!

They are all almost as bad as Santa....almost. I hate that jolly fat man.

Song: Goodnight by Evanescence
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ArBiDmGbH4E

(May we all remember the great times of 1976 and 1991 when he tasted a bite of trix)

Mega Ultra Epic Fail

So its Tuesday afternoon...sorta night, around 8:00. As you can view in my previous post that I had a plan for this week. Now I am not the type that just breaks when the smallest thing goes wrong, but man do I hate making plans and then not having them come true!! I hate it! I plan and I plan and then all goes wrong! I was at a point where I wouldn't make plans anymore! But on Sunday I made a plan for the week and even though the week is not over, none of my plans have come true. Some of these not working outs was my fault....but whatever...

Mama says that I need to learn how to roll with the punches but I was just watching iCarly and I realized that I hadn't done anything all day! Nothing! And its Tuesday! Japanese day! T_T and I found the disc that has all my Japanese lessons on it and I didn't touch it.

Man....my gloves are never gonna get done! The knitting day on Monday didn't happen but that was no bodies fault. For all I know, the pregnant lady had her baby. I tried looking up how to finish my gloves online but man, do people know how to sound really snooty and make things overly hard to explain. I just want gloves that I made all by myself! Is that so much?

I should have taken more initiative with the Japanese and I know tomorrow looks bleak but I am gonna try. But seriously today just feels like one big epic fail.

Song: Trouble by Coldplay