Sunday, September 27, 2009

Post number 50

I was hoping to save this post for when I got my lap top. Since I really love the number five...for reasons that I should forget, I was gonna make this a special post but...man...I..

You know...falling is only fun till you hit the ground. Then you can either lay there or you can get up. Getting up can hurt a lot depending on how far you have fallen from...

I don't know...I need to go pray...and knit or something...

Song: ...you think of one...

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Sigh...

I woke up this morning and my drool in the pillow was in the shape of lips, I had a dream about drinking for the first time, and I keep day dreaming about a guy randomly breaking up with his wife for absolutely no reason.

I'm lonely....fuu...


Song : Where are you by Zap Mama
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IFAB-K0G6Ho

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Couldn't get better

Life is so good, no...God is good. Life is a terrible circle of spiraling sin but God is good.

You know, as I back read my blog I can't help but see a journey that I went through. Its really quite amazing. Like when I was in high school and I would read my journals from when I was in middle school. I was such a nub, I can't help but laugh when I think about how trivial I acted while the world was being provided for me.

I'm feeling so blessed, not because I am getting material things recently but pushing that aside I see a beautiful perspective. I hope, no, I just know that if I pray about it I can carry this warm and fuzzy feeling over to my classes on Monday and the rest of the week. I tend to lose my temper in that class and I forget why I'm there and I hate it basically, but I really don't want that to be my college experience.

So from this week on I want to walk into class with a new perspective. I want to live, love, and let love. Sounds a bit hippieish but that's okay! Hippies are cool, they had the right idea...for the most part. All the free loveins and drugs was a bad idea but everything else was epic.

Song: How it Burned by Chapman
http://apps.facebook.com/ilike/artist/Chapman/track/How+It+Burned


Sunday, September 13, 2009

Good Enough

I have faith problems, but I am getting better...I think.

I suppose, back when I didn't have experiences of God, it was hard to accept him but now that I am having day to day divine interventions of God taking care of me...it gets a little heavy...I'm not sure if that's the word I want to use...I don't know...

Life right now...I may run into a few bumps and slips but everything is working out on its own. I really feel like God is taking care of me and that I really don't have to worry. When things get too heavy he makes an escape route for me. I get tired and I feel like quitting but then by the time I feel like breaking its time to go to sleep and its all over till tomorrow. So I feel good...good enough..

The weekend is a haven. Although I have a ton of math homework I should get to...fuu...

Song : uuuh...I'm feeling a bit like Julia by the Beatles
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JCspJhQ_H5A