The big One Zero Zero

It would seem that I have reached my one hundredth post. Because of this momentous occasion, I have decided to talk about something that I think everyone in the world struggles with. 

Consistency

Its needed when we are being raised, its needed when we are learning skills, its needed when we are working, its needed when we are loving others. Without consistency we can send the wrong messages or lose track of what our real goal is. We can start to fall behind and become completely lost because we've traveled far from the beaten path. For some, this might even be a good thing, a new start with which they can start anew and find a new path that fits them better(still a path they will have to be consistent with, but a path none the less). For me...falling away from what I know, it only leaves me in the dark. 

I'm inconsistent with prayer, chores, doing what I know is right, straying from what is wrong, promises, going to church, loving others, doing my crafts, following my goals, knowing what I want, and almost anything else I deem too hard to deal with at the moment. All that inconsistency just leaves me confused, conflicted, and scared. Stagnant for too long and frozen by fear, I let the flow of life guide me from when I wake up to when I go to bed. 

Consistent with my inability to be consistent with what matters. And all that it leads to is a life stuck in a circle with no chance of growth. Stuck. 
I need to move forward. I need to believe that prayer can help this phase pass by. Doldrums again and again in my life and its just no good.

This is my one hundredth post. I've been consistent with this unimportant blog, but what have I really done? Typed up a lot of feelings that haven't done much to reveal an answer to myself. I want nothing more than to do better. The simple answer is to just do better. So simple. 

Eat better, love better, work better, be BETTER. 

This is my one hundredth post. There was once one post, then another. It took a while but I have whined and clawed and laughed my way to a hundred. Such is life...I won't change by tomorrow...I will probably continue to be inconsistent for quite some time. But I will try not to be. One step at a time, one day at a time, one prayer at a time till I get better. 

Song: Serpentine by Chris Bathgate

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_ra-8Kr79-A