Okay, so yeah...

I've gone back, not that I announced that I left. But let it be known that I had left and now I am back. I wasn't even trying to stop myself from sinning these last few weeks and last night I just raised my hands up and said " God, take me back, I am tired of this." And I almost instanly felt better. I walked out to my mom's car and brought some food in the house and I asked myself, why did I ever try to leave God's side? This freeing feeling, why would I ever want to be without it?

Usually this is the place where I would put: We'll see how long it last this time. But no, I really don't feel that way this time. I just feel like this is natural. I don't wanna be any other way. I'm tired of going back and forth and I just want to stay in the light and not endure the darkness. I'm finding myself nodding while I think that it feels right. And this is not a reassurance to myself. Its just a nice truth that my sinful nature of the past is not use to.

This is not to say that sins will not be included in my future. Hopefully they will be miner in size and not as drastic as the sins I am involved in now. Anyhoo, pray for me and tell me how you stay sane in today's world. ^_^

Song: To build a home by The Cinematic Orchestra
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bjjc59FgUpg